First off, this new WordPress editing layout is bomb. Bloggers, can you relate? I guess. I can’t really hear you.
So: Last week I made myself a promise that I would shut my phone down for a week. Needless to say, I failed myself miserably. Not to worry, though, because there is still a LOT I have learnt 🙂 (And to make it seem legit, I’m going to throw in as much emotion and sentimentality into this as humanly possible.)
1. Putting your phone away for even a minute helps.
The second day I shut my phone down, I felt absolutely blissful. I made a rule that I can only use my phone when I’m not doing anything else already. That way, I’m focused all the time. Obviously, I couldn’t hold myself back all the time (les be honest I couldn’t hold myself back at all but I tried), but it still felt good.
2. Find other things to make you feel good.
I got into basketball and cycling again. I talked to friends I haven’t talked to in weeks. I made new ones in the digital space. I researched about things I normally wouldn’t have time to do. More than anything, I did everything that felt important in my life, without any feeling of guilt whatsoever.
3. Live! In IRL.
Whatever it is you’re going through, whether you’re trying to detox from your phone or are on a journey of self-discovery, remind yourself that you are always a work in progress. No matter what the circumstances, you can control yourself and make sure you’re okay. Just don’t get carried away with getting better that you forget your true self. If your gut says something, listen to it. If your gut tells you that you need to use the phone, you go and use that phone. If your gut tells you it’s time to relax or let out a tear, please, do it. Don’t ever lose contact with your consciousness. You will do amazing. I promise.
Song of the day is undoubtedly I Can’t Get Enough.
I haven’t really had the chance to use my phone a lot today because of school, but I did do a lot of productive internet using, which I’m very proud of.
Also, my room is a mess and I think that’s okay. I guess. I’ve been talking to a couple of my friends who live outside of the country and we have been having some pretty interesting conversations, hopefully I can talk to you about them soon.
One thing that was bugging me today was the fact that I had so much FREE TIME on my hands, which honestly made me feel a little guilty. Like I almost am afraid of being up to date on everything in life and now the fact that everything is chill is something to be anxious about. I’M NEVER FREE! I don’t mean that in the sense that I’m always busy, but I mean that I always have a schedule of what I’m going to do in a day, and once that schedule is up, I’m at a loss.
I guess my fear of being free is something I will work on for a long time, because I definitely don’t know how to fix it right now.
I don’t remember the last time I felt this happy on a Monday, honestly. And I’m not saying this just because I don’t have my phone by my side anymore. I don’t know, everything seems easier. I feel a lot more open and flexible in terms of how my day goes, and I’m okay with not being in control all the time.
I am feeling a tiny bit of withdrawal, but I will have to get over it.
Also, I stumbled upon this BEAUTIFUL MUSIC ALBUM by M83 called “Hurry Up, We’re Dreaming, and you should go listen to it. It’s out of this world.
When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, then compliment yourself. It’s not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It’s up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside.”
wow. I woke up feeling more amazing than I ever have in a while. As soon as I woke up, I meditated, I cleaned my room a bit, and I picked out a book to read for the day. I even wrote in my to-do list, but I haven’t even done half of the things I intended to do. That’s okay, really. I did a lot more, though. I finally started writing the first draft of my novel (yay), and while I definitely don’t expect to finish it this year, I will write a little bit every once in a while and see where it goes.
Towards the afternoon, however, I started to feel a little itch emerge in my head, and I knew I would try to go use my phone. Surprisingly, I still haven’t. It’s 7 pm.
I have also started to do other things to kill time that I normally wouldn’t have time to do, such as re-reading Paper Towns while walking downstairs and playing the guitar as the summer/winter sun shines on me through the clouds. It’s amazing.
As for not finishing everything on my to-do list, I don’t feel the same level of anxiety while working as I used to before, so I know I will do it when I need to. I trust myself that much now. Tomorrow’s a holiday anyway.
I don’t really think there’s much to report other than that, but I’ll keep you posted!
we can convey the truth with stories. by writing it, you set the world on fire.
Huuuuuuuuh.😬 Okay, I’m doing this. Why am I doing this?
Here are the main problems that I have with my phone:
Well, basically, I’ve been on my phone for too damn long. Everything I do needs to somehow have my phone as a requirement to do it well, and that really pisses me off. When I’m sleeping, I have my phone right beside me on my nightstand, and as soon I get up, I pick up my phone I just… hold it? There’s some certain dopamine rush that I get by just having my phone on me, and I know that that’s not right, but I haven’t been able to do anything about it.
When I have my phone with me, I have the deepest urge to just to do whatever my impulses lead me to do. That mostly checking Instagram or WordPress, or WhatsApp, even when I know that there’s nothing new to see. I always want to Google something up, or text someone, or check out my daily blog stats, and I just want to do something on my phone to give myself a fulfilled sense of purpose. And I feel sad, both while thinking about it and while doing it. There’s always this sense of something new and fresh that I need to know about NOW.
Disconnecting from Reality
I think we can all relate to the fact that sometimes we spend more time listening to music than actually listening to the world around us. This is my life story. I’m too embarrassed to tell you how much I listen to music and in what kind of situations I listen to music. All I can say is that ever since I’ve had my own phone, I’ve had the liberty to use the resources at my side to whatever extent I’ve wanted, and I feel like my phone encourages me to take it too far.
So, for an indefinite period of time (most probably the whole of March), I intend to get off my phone completely by shutting it down. Here are the rules:
No form of textual communication. I’m gonna become 2007-style Vlogbrothers on this one, and I am not going to engage in any sort of text messaging. That includes WhatsApp, Instagram, Hangouts, and whatever else I use these days. I don’t really keep track. I will be allowed access to Discord, but only from my laptop.
Blogging only from the laptop. I often get ideas while walking downstairs, or in the shower(obvi), and what I used to do was immediately grab my phone and write it down in the Notes app. Now, I won’t be able to do that. I know that I should write down ideas when I get them, but I wanna stop having to reach for a device as soon as it springs up in my head.
Music only from Alexa or the laptop. I’m going to cut down on the amount of music I take in on a weekly basis. Once I get rid of the phone from my hand, the process of selecting music gets way less tiring. God bless Alexa.
My first goal is to stay away from my phone for the next week and add on to that later. I really have no idea how this is going to go, but I hope it ends well 🤷♀️