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Season in Review – Winter #1

Dat’s right. It’s a new thing, where I spend more time on the Internet than I already do, and bring you the season’s best in music, literature, poetry, YouTube, and whatever it is that seems to interest me anymore. Also, in my head, winter ends as soon as February begins, so forgive me if you’re reading this and it’s still freezing.

Let us begin.


Couple new genres explored. In December, I came across TwoSet on YouTube, and now I feel like I’ve been following their content for years. Because of that, I’ve exposed myself to a lot of classical music lately. I pretty much listen only to classical music when I’m by myself these days, to be honest. I also tried to learn to play Moonlight Sonata and Chopin, which unfortunately for me, is batsh*t crazy hard.

Classical music aside, I also listened to a lot of lofi music, and jazzhop, which I have been a fan of for a while, but I was never really into it until now. Like always, I definitely strayed away from mainstream pop music (in all languages), and I found myself listening to Dutch and French rap more than listening to Justin Bieber’s Yummy (which I still haven’t listened to fully). Listeners beware; if you’re going to listen to my winter playlist, please don’t put it on shuffle, cause you could be listening to piano music one minute and the dulcet tones of Cartier the next.


I read too many books this winter.

No, that’s a lie. I read like five. And all of them in the last two weeks.

I didn’t read enough in 2019. I’m not gonna lie. I feel like a barely read anything. So this year, I’m doing the Reading Challenge on Goodreads and I’m gonna read 50 books or more. Given that I’ve already read like five books, and given that I keep this level of enthusiasm for the entire year, I should be good.

I’ve picked up Science Fiction again after a long, dry spell with no sort of fiction books on my shelf. It’s refreshing to read a good work of sci-fi and feels its effects afterwards. An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green, Dark Matter and Recursion by Blake Crouch, all wonderful examples of what good science fiction is like.

Also, follow me on Goodreads, I post a ton of reviews and ratings on books I’ve read!


Winter hasn’t been the most stress-free time I could have hoped for, but it was certainly the most eye-opening ones. As another academic year is coming to a close, I get closer and closer to a world where none of the safety and comfort I currently have will exist. It’s easy to think we have things in control, when in fact we’re all just sailing along the tide, dancing to the universe’s rhythm. And so, I’d like to end this winter with an E.E. Cummings poem that I already put up on my blog, but is worth repeating:

O sweet spontaneous
earth how often have

             fingers of
prurient philosophers pinched

,has the naughty thumb
of science prodded

        beauty      how
often have religions taken
thee upon their scraggy knees
squeezing and

buffeting thee that thou mightest conceive

to the incomparable
couch of death thy

             thou answerest

them only with


As always, the earth will answer the cold, grey winter, only with spring.


January Top 30

the things that made January amazing-

  1. Supernatural.
  2. Tumblr.
  3. Instagram (or the lack thereof)
  4. TwoSetViolin’s 2mil Tchaik drop (scheduled live-stream on Feb 7!)
  5. Driving the streets of West Hyd. All time fav timepass.
  6. Andrew Huang and his music genius brain.
  7. Falling in love with architecture.
  8. Math. Kill me, I don’t care. I freaking love math.
  9. Bach and Lauv, with the same level of importance.
  10. Book-reading. I read eight whole books this month.
  11. Staying at home. Not having to go to school.
  12. Ricky Gervais at the Globes. God, that was refreshing.
  13. Daniel Shiffman.
  14. Austin Kleon and his blackout poetry.
  15. The community library, which was essentially the only reason I studied during the vacation.
  16. Badminton in the evenings.
  17. Cream Stone plans after dinner.
  18. All the podcasts that were playing on my phone (one day, Dear Hank and John was running all night).
  19. Science fiction literature.
  20. Fairy lights in my bedroom.
  21. Feels Like Home by Sigala.
  22. Nike Training Club and their collection of lactic-acid producing workouts (my legs are still sore).
  23. PewDiePie (strangely).
  24. Seth Everman. Jesus, that dude.
  25. Fanfiction. I’m not afraid to admit I indulged in a lot of fanfic in January.
  26. how i’m feeling (out March 6th)
  27. Sweet, sweet poetry by e. e. cummings.
  28. SDCC videos on YouTube.
  29. Seasonal chillhop music.
  30. Dreams, and the power they have over us.

Weightless – Marconi

Apparently this song reduces anxiety by 65%. How interesting.


i wanna know if these words are enough

Blogs Music

Classical Music For Every Situation

when you think about your first love:

Mendelssohn – Violin Concerto in E Minor, II. Andante

when you drink a good cup of coffee:

El Jarabe Tanatio (The Mexican Hat Dance)

when you DIE:

Debussy – Violin Sonata, I. Allegro vivo

when you’re thinking about thinking:

Ysaye – Sonata for 2 Violins in A Minor, I. Poco lento


Boccherini – Minuetto

when you’re in the mood for orchestral music:

Mahler- Symphony No. 5, IV- Adagietto

when you wanna take the less travelled road:

Prokofiev – Violin Sonata No.2, I. Moderato

when you feel like eating music (you read that right):

Bach – Violin Sonata No. 2 in A Minor BWV 1003, III. Andante

if you wanted to describe music to an alien:

Bach – Violin Partita No.3 in E Major BWV 1006, 1. Preludio

when you meet the love of your life (lol):

Bach – Violin Partita No.3 in E Major BWV 1006, 1. Preludio

if you could never listen to music again and this was your last piece:

Sibelius – Violin Concerto in D Minor, II. Adagio di melto

Blogs Music

Appreciating Musician YouTubers // List

1. twoset violin

Shout-out to @deeyee_drawing for this amazingdesign!

2. Andrew Huang

3. Julian cianciolo

4. charles cornell

5. daniel thrasher


My Mum and I Review Classical Music

Today we have something special, and something that involves someone besides me.

Say hello to my mum. Hi, ma.

Since I needed some original content to put up on the blog and since I’m running out of ideas, we decided to listen to a couple of classical music pieces together and see if we can come up with a decent review. Keep in mind that I am next to a noob in re classical music, and mum’s classical music knowledge is even lesser than mine. So I think we’ll have a nice little change of perspectives about how classical music is portrayed by the non-musical ear.

We’re doing this live, and we’re doing it blindly. Given that we have next to no knowledge about classical composers, this should be a pretty fair and unbiased review. We’ll be reviewing 5 pieces of classical music, and we’ll tell you how we feel!

1. Moonlight Sonata – Beethoven


Okay, I know this piece. I’m currently learning this one on the keyboard. Are we still allowed to review it then? This was actually one of the first pieces I ever heard of Beethoven’s. I remember listening to it sometime in like, sixth grade, and thinking it sounded pretty morose. Now, because I’ve learnt enough about music theory and composition, I’ve come to appreciate it more than I would have expected. 7 out of 10.


A mystical journey, with a person on a quest to find something. Very soothing as well as motivating. Like a soul string, it pulls at the right places and slows down at the right places

On days when you are searching for what’s bothering you, this piece can be a beautiful companion to arrive at the answer. 8 out of 10.

2. Prelude in C major – Bach


The start seemed promising, with the upbeat tempo and all, then it sort of fell flat during the next two minutes or so. Definitely something I would enjoy listening to passively or in the background, but I probably wouldn’t pick this one out exclusively. Very light feel, though. I like it, just not enough. 6 out of 10.


Filled with promise and hope. Like the clearing of clouds after a dark storm

Or an awakened mind after a bout of negative thoughts. The notes are strikingly similar to rays of light shining. 8 out of 10.

3. Eine kleine Nachtmusik – Mozart


You’ve got to be kidding me.

Eine Kleine is so overused I might as well be listening to Justin Bieber at this point. That said, I can’t help but listening to it on repeat, I don’t know why. So happy. So cheerful. The fact that I’ve heard this tune since my Little Einstein-watching days means I’m comfortable around it and I don’t necessarily have the urge to fast forward every two seconds. I likey. 8 out of 10.


It is a joyous celebration. Not meant for the light moments of reflection. It is filled with suspense, anticipation, thrill, and the calm of caution. It is a fun piece of extreme proportions. If someone gave me a million dollars and allowed me next to an ocean and mountains, I would play this music in my head. 7 out of 10.

4. Prelude Op.28 No.4 in E minor – Chopin


Sounds like Chopin.

Instant 10.


Too much of sharp notes that disturb the continuity of thought at the beginning. Contemplative mood, but not the kind that would allow you to come out through it. Music is not a companion. It plays on its own without adding any connection to the listener. 3 out of 10.

5. The Four Seasons — Spring – Vivaldi



Although this particular recording of Four Seasons seems slower than the original, I still love it. I have listened to a couple of orchestra recordings of Four Seasons and they all kill. Summer’s my favourite. Four Seasons on a whole, gets 7.5 out of 10. Spring and Summer both get a 9.


Very exhilarating. Similar to piece #3. The lows and highs are intricate and build curiosity. Good for a day when the mind is free and waiting for good ideas to come. Not for a day when the mind is deep and needs reflection. 7 out of 10.

Well, there it is. I hadn’t expected the disparities between our reviews to be this polar, but it is what it is. Feel free to send in your own reviews in the comments below, we’d love to here what you have to say! Have a great day, cheers 🙂


19 – Spotify Playlist


Can’t help falling in love — Cover

Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can’t help falling in love with you
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin?
For I can’t help falling in love with you

Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be

Take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can’t help falling in love with you