Daily Blogging- It’s going to be a challenge, and I accept

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Let me just start off by saying this: There is nothing more that I would want to do right now than sleep. The whole half yearly stretch involved me waking up at 5:15 in the morning and quickly going through all of my syllabi. And it then involved me going to bed at 10 in the night. If you know me or even if you don’t, here’s one thing that has never change about me in my life- I love sleeping. A bit too much.

Back to reality, I am faced with the challenge of keeping myself awake while also standing by my promise of blogging every day for the next two weeks or so. I’m not really sure what exactly I’m going to be blogging about, but I am absolutely sure that I’m going to be collaborating with a lot of (actually, just three) people. Keep looking for guest posts, guys.

I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to write until then, so let me just talk about my day at school.

My exams finished today. Yay!

Believe me when I say that I have never been so worried about exams in my entire 10-year life as a student. Ever. There’s something about writing an exam in 9th grade that makes me want to curl into a ball and sleep away. And sleep is something that I did not have much of, this exam season.

Anyway, so I was worried about my exams, and then I was worried that I was worried, and obviously, my thoughts spiraled from there. One word that I use to describe my life a lot is hopeful despair, (that’s 2 words), and that is exactly how I felt for the last two weeks.

It’s not that I am bad at studies, I am one of the toppers of my class, but something made me feel very anxious about the whole situation.

I dunno. Has this ever happened to you? And what did you do to change? Lemme know in the comments below.

Books that I’m currently reading:

  • Show Your Work! – Austin Kleon

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  • 12 Rules For Life – Jordan B. Peterson
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  • What We Cannot Know – Marcus du Sautoy

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  • Unthink – Chris Paley


What books are you engrossed in right now? I’d love to hear some suggestions from you 🙂

This is going to be an amazing experience for me, and I hope to see your love and support through this journey! Thanks a lot.


this feeling.

this dreadful feeling

plays with my mind

and i build all these walls

so it can’t get inside


but closing myself off

just isn’t right

cause i know how to fight,

not how to hide.

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Why Too Much Success is Overwhelming (Sometimes)

Over the last two or three weeks, I have made a conscious effort to make my life better. I’ve been thinking happier thoughts, I’ve been more charismatic and easygoing around my friends, and I’ve done everything I possibly could to make my life better.

And it’s been working!

Two days ago, my friend and I won the city semifinals of a quiz competition, and won ourselves a trip to a 5-Star hotel in Mumbai for the finals, along with a Bluetooth speaker and a cash prize of Rs.20000. I cannot believe that that happened, because I haven’t had that happen to me in a long time. I am proud of myself for going through the uncomfortable process of doing new things because that has helped me succeed in various facets of life.

But everything has its limits, and too much of anything is bad. That includes being happy. And so, I hit a roadblock yesterday, when my recent success overwhelmed to the point of self-hate and despair. I went from being my best possible self to my worst, in a matter of hours.

I know that I want the most exciting, interesting and fun life I can possibly have, but it’s not worth it if I have to put the rest of your life away and make time only for novel experiences.

You know what the worst part about winning the quiz was?

The way people were reacting to this.

I am not ungrateful to anyone about this opportunity. In fact, I am very, very thankful to everyone who believed in me and made this possible.

What I didn’t like is the way people are cashing in on this success, and acting like I’m some “miracle girl”. Like I’d achieved something so great that the entire world needed to stop and appreciate me for my hard work.

I’m not undermining my feat. Nor am I undermining the effort I put in for this.

I just wished people would act professionally about this, congratulate me, actually be curious about what my friend and I did, and offer to help me for the finals.

But no! The people only care about congratulating me, glorifying me, saying yayyyy all the time, but they don’t actually care about ME.

This might seem very self-derogatory or self-defeating, but believe me when I say I have no little respect for myself than I did before this happened. If anything, my self-respect has grown by miles and bounds. I can’t express in words how proud I am of myself and how satisfied I feel.

I just wish I could deal with this situation in a better way.

It is a new experience, after all.

I know it sounds ungrateful that I felt sad at a time that I should have been jumping in joy, but the sheer magnitude of my success consumed me in the worst way possible. I felt like I deserved to congratulated for my efforts, but as reality was different, I felt rather disappointed.

Now, the next day, I have gotten over the sadness and I’m back to looking forward and thinking about my improvement. I learnt yesterday that the problem was that I had been carrying too much emotional baggage with me all the time, and any additional stress inevitably would have tipped my balance and made me buckle under pressure. I learnt that the key to letting of all the things that disturb you is not to discard them but to accept them and forgive yourself for any harm they ever caused you.

After forgiving myself, I continued to be my happy, quirky self, but now, I accepted every flaw that ever existed in me, realizing that my quirks are what make me different and make me succeed at things that mean a lot to me. I know that this is something that we hear all the time, but when we actually do it in real life, the process of letting go and accepting yourself and the world around you is the most exhilarating thing you can ever experience.

Thank you for reading this post, which is really something of an angry rant. Some of the greatest advice that I’ve gotten from my writer friends is that the best time to write in a flow is either when you’re very passionate about something or when you’re very angry about something. You could say that this post is a bit of both.

If you or anyone you know feels this way a lot, please leave a comment below or share this post, and I would love to have a conversation with you. It’s always great to talk to people who feel the same way about life as I do.

Thanks again.


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